I am so giddy its so hard to write!!! Today i went to register for this school year and i was really worried becuase i was in a class with seniors in a different building so i would have to be in a smart pod or team (and i am also in a couple advanced classes) and i got on the pod that was rumored to have only advanced classes so i was really worried that Ty wouldn't be on there because i didnt think he would be in any advanced classes (he's not below average he's just a slacker and doesn't like homework so he always gets bad grades, USUALLY), but a miracle has come and HE IS IN MY POD!!!!!!!!!!!!! *squeal* I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WAS SO HAPPY!!!!! Being in different pods usually means ur friendship with people usually weakens becuase u dont see them all day unless its out of school but now im with him and i get to see him everyday and sit at lunch with him!!! I did see him during registration and my mom being a parent had to go and embarrass me infront of him (even though she doesn't know i like him, she does this to all my friends who are guys), and im not mad at her for it but i was sooooo embarrased, although i think he forgot by now but he kinda just laughed at me inside and we tried to ignore each other cause that's how things kinda work at these registrations. I remember i was so bummed when i thought i wasnt in the same pod but when he said he was in the same i was so filled with glee!!! I'm only in one class and it is the class i will miss half of 2-3 times a week because of this senior french class but i still get to see him in the halls and i get to sit with him at lunch, OMG I AM SOOOOO HAPPY!!!! I hope everything goes well and i hope this'll help him fall in love with me again ^^!!!!
Jumping off the walls with happiness,
Hikari
Days till school: 13
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Goodnight and Go
Ok well i know i havent posted for like 3 weeks and im really sorry and i decided im gonna try my best at posting more. Well putting that aside, everything has really been going great! Even though Ty went on his date with Favi a week or so ago it seems that i'm talking to him a lot more and stuff. I think you all heard about how he finally found that message where i typed *red* (the first hint he gave me) and he was all serious and all (which actually seriously scares me, him being serious) trying to get me to tell him what i meant by that, of course i didn't tell him because i was scared and i yelled at him and logged off (ah the joys of doing this over IM). So we didn't talk for a few days after that (by the way he found out the day after his date) and then once we started talking again we acted like it didn't happen. The last 3 days we're talking multiple times a day.
But yesterday was big, i talked to him plenty of times but it didn't get interesting till last night. We were going into a silence after talking about this simple computer prank (its hilarious, doesn't work for all computers but most: Ctrl+alt+ down key)then i questioned him about Favi, his date:
I had talked to my friend Kisu-chan and Favi a day before (we're all friends) and Favi really liked Ty and was too scared to "ask him out" (i used this term as "ask to be his girlfriend" but ty said it was more like just going to a date so i don't really know what term to use, lets just say ask to be his girlfriend) and Kisu-chan said that she talked to Ty (i'm surprised she hangs out with him, i didn't know they were that great of friends but at the same time she saw her with this psycho girl, manda-chan who's had a crush on Ty for years even though he hates her even though she seems to always make him hang out with her but anyway [and also manda-chan was the one that gave me his number last summer when we pranked txted him]) and he said he wanted to "ask to be her boyfriend" but i was seriously unconvinced. Ty wouldn't just openly say that to Kisu-chan who isn't even 100% trustable and not exactly best friends with him so i was surprised but i didn't buy it, at least i didn't want to.
So i asked him if it was true if he wanted to "be her bfriend" (gah i hate saying that!!! im just gonna say "go out") and he was like: "where did u hear that?". After a while of stalling and saying just people, i finally told him kisu-chan. I was pretty silent after and then he said he didn't know and then he didn't care. Then HE started dotting and i was like what, what was the matter, and then totally unexpected he told me: "Go to bed." I was like "EXCUSE ME?!?!?!" i still totally didn't get it and i sent a couple messages after that asking him what the heck he was talking about then apologizing for yelling. I didn't go to sleep though of course, becuase today was the one day i didn't have practice in the morning so i was gonna try to stay up late. He never sent anything else after that but we both seemed pretty embarrassed, me talking to him of course, and him... well i really hope it wasn't about Favi.
Trying to figure out if he really cares, and trying to sound as dissapointed as possible while bringing Favi up,
Hikari
P.S. The title is this song that really reminds me of him and me, please listen to it if you can (it was also on a Rukia (me) and Ichigo (ty) tribute anime video)
"Goodnight and Go" Imogen Heap
"...Why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
Follow you home
You've got your headphones on..."
(i really like it cause one of the first weeks of school last year he did walk me all the way home and of course because of our love of music we both had our headphones on and i was really nervous and all [i knew he liked me, and this was his peak of loving me but i dont think he knew i liked him yet, maybe this is what made me open my eyes,i'm not sure] and then once i watched him walk back for a little bit i txted him and said "Thanks" and he was all "... *kiss*" i still remember my feeling and seeing it, i loved it. and yet i miss it so much. *happy tears*)
But yesterday was big, i talked to him plenty of times but it didn't get interesting till last night. We were going into a silence after talking about this simple computer prank (its hilarious, doesn't work for all computers but most: Ctrl+alt+ down key)then i questioned him about Favi, his date:
I had talked to my friend Kisu-chan and Favi a day before (we're all friends) and Favi really liked Ty and was too scared to "ask him out" (i used this term as "ask to be his girlfriend" but ty said it was more like just going to a date so i don't really know what term to use, lets just say ask to be his girlfriend) and Kisu-chan said that she talked to Ty (i'm surprised she hangs out with him, i didn't know they were that great of friends but at the same time she saw her with this psycho girl, manda-chan who's had a crush on Ty for years even though he hates her even though she seems to always make him hang out with her but anyway [and also manda-chan was the one that gave me his number last summer when we pranked txted him]) and he said he wanted to "ask to be her boyfriend" but i was seriously unconvinced. Ty wouldn't just openly say that to Kisu-chan who isn't even 100% trustable and not exactly best friends with him so i was surprised but i didn't buy it, at least i didn't want to.
So i asked him if it was true if he wanted to "be her bfriend" (gah i hate saying that!!! im just gonna say "go out") and he was like: "where did u hear that?". After a while of stalling and saying just people, i finally told him kisu-chan. I was pretty silent after and then he said he didn't know and then he didn't care. Then HE started dotting and i was like what, what was the matter, and then totally unexpected he told me: "Go to bed." I was like "EXCUSE ME?!?!?!" i still totally didn't get it and i sent a couple messages after that asking him what the heck he was talking about then apologizing for yelling. I didn't go to sleep though of course, becuase today was the one day i didn't have practice in the morning so i was gonna try to stay up late. He never sent anything else after that but we both seemed pretty embarrassed, me talking to him of course, and him... well i really hope it wasn't about Favi.
Trying to figure out if he really cares, and trying to sound as dissapointed as possible while bringing Favi up,
Hikari
P.S. The title is this song that really reminds me of him and me, please listen to it if you can (it was also on a Rukia (me) and Ichigo (ty) tribute anime video)
"Goodnight and Go" Imogen Heap
"...Why'd you have to be so cute
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
Follow you home
You've got your headphones on..."
(i really like it cause one of the first weeks of school last year he did walk me all the way home and of course because of our love of music we both had our headphones on and i was really nervous and all [i knew he liked me, and this was his peak of loving me but i dont think he knew i liked him yet, maybe this is what made me open my eyes,i'm not sure] and then once i watched him walk back for a little bit i txted him and said "Thanks" and he was all "... *kiss*" i still remember my feeling and seeing it, i loved it. and yet i miss it so much. *happy tears*)
Friday, July 4, 2008
Fireworks!?!?! Maybe love!?!? GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok im started to freak out now cause im going to hang out with Ty tonight, here's the story:
Day 1 (July 3rd): I talked to him at night and he seemed to be in a good mood cause he was talking a lot more than usual. We talked a while then he mentioned he was going on a date next. Surprisingly, i didn't freeze and start freaking out, guess it was cause i was really tired. I asked about it and he seemed kinda embarrased bout telling me but he said "Favi". Favi is a good friend of both of us, really nice and polite, i liked her and i knew Ty hung out with her a lot. I went along with it and acted like i supported him for it (like i did for my cousin who, and still does, liked Ty and i tried to get them together only to find out it was me who he really liked last summer), that was when he got quiet and he didn't seem to want to talk about Favi. I just couldn't let the subject go, i tried to push it a little more just to make me seem jealous but i dont think it worked. I finally asked him if he had asked Favi if she was going to the Independence Day fireworks the next day even though i wanted to go with him. He said he didn't care for going with her and would rather wait till next week. Even though he had supposedly asked her out to a movie he didn't want to talk about it and he said it was a "kinda date" that it wasn't like they were going out or anything and besides Favi was nice, it seems to me as if it isn't a date at all. I have been pondering if this is an attempt to make me jealous or not but i'll just have to see.
Here's where it gets crazy:
Day 2, Independence Day July 4th: I woke up this morning/afternoon (i was up late again so it was actually 12:30 when i woke up) and i got on my computer and as soon as i logged into my messenger Ty was pinging me with a bunch of messages, of course at the time i couldn't respond cause i was helping my mom (she recently had knee surgery so i have been helping her out) and he kept wanting to talk to me. I finally answered and he was really talkative and happy which shocked me. He was trying to ask me what i was doing tonight for the fireworks. I told him i was going with my friend Ibi-chan (who he'd met once a long time ago) and her friend to watch across the street and immediatly he asked if he could come. I was kinda surprised that all of a sudden he wanted to hang out with me even though he was having a date with Favi a week later. I asked Ibi-chan as Ty waited impatiently and now he's going with ibi-chan and i to watch fireworks!!! I'm so nervous and excited at the same time because i haven't seen him in over a month and its FIREWORKS!!! I don't know what to do and i don't know what's gonna happen. I offered that he could bring a friend with him so he's not with a bunch of girls but he said he'd rather not. Does that mean he really would like to go with me and just me rather than anyone else?! Well i have 3 hours before i meet him and Ibi-chan so wish me luck!
Nervousness nervousness,
Hikari
P.S. I'll post what happens later.
Day 1 (July 3rd): I talked to him at night and he seemed to be in a good mood cause he was talking a lot more than usual. We talked a while then he mentioned he was going on a date next. Surprisingly, i didn't freeze and start freaking out, guess it was cause i was really tired. I asked about it and he seemed kinda embarrased bout telling me but he said "Favi". Favi is a good friend of both of us, really nice and polite, i liked her and i knew Ty hung out with her a lot. I went along with it and acted like i supported him for it (like i did for my cousin who, and still does, liked Ty and i tried to get them together only to find out it was me who he really liked last summer), that was when he got quiet and he didn't seem to want to talk about Favi. I just couldn't let the subject go, i tried to push it a little more just to make me seem jealous but i dont think it worked. I finally asked him if he had asked Favi if she was going to the Independence Day fireworks the next day even though i wanted to go with him. He said he didn't care for going with her and would rather wait till next week. Even though he had supposedly asked her out to a movie he didn't want to talk about it and he said it was a "kinda date" that it wasn't like they were going out or anything and besides Favi was nice, it seems to me as if it isn't a date at all. I have been pondering if this is an attempt to make me jealous or not but i'll just have to see.
Here's where it gets crazy:
Day 2, Independence Day July 4th: I woke up this morning/afternoon (i was up late again so it was actually 12:30 when i woke up) and i got on my computer and as soon as i logged into my messenger Ty was pinging me with a bunch of messages, of course at the time i couldn't respond cause i was helping my mom (she recently had knee surgery so i have been helping her out) and he kept wanting to talk to me. I finally answered and he was really talkative and happy which shocked me. He was trying to ask me what i was doing tonight for the fireworks. I told him i was going with my friend Ibi-chan (who he'd met once a long time ago) and her friend to watch across the street and immediatly he asked if he could come. I was kinda surprised that all of a sudden he wanted to hang out with me even though he was having a date with Favi a week later. I asked Ibi-chan as Ty waited impatiently and now he's going with ibi-chan and i to watch fireworks!!! I'm so nervous and excited at the same time because i haven't seen him in over a month and its FIREWORKS!!! I don't know what to do and i don't know what's gonna happen. I offered that he could bring a friend with him so he's not with a bunch of girls but he said he'd rather not. Does that mean he really would like to go with me and just me rather than anyone else?! Well i have 3 hours before i meet him and Ibi-chan so wish me luck!
Nervousness nervousness,
Hikari
P.S. I'll post what happens later.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Lonely as hell
Hey not much to say since its 2 AM+ right now and my vision is getting blury *goes down to get caffeine* but i just wanna say its really lonely without all of you (isnt tokomi just gone???) anyway i'll post about my worries in the mornin. Anyway im just gonna talk to Hun-kun (Ty's friend) for a min, finish Pichi Pichi Pitch 6 and go to bed.
Hikari
Hikari
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