Absolute Boyfriend and One Lonely Summer Day

Ok half of this post is from yesterday but i didnt have time to finish it so here it is:
So i just read almost the entire Absolute Boyfriend series today (and finished. whoa in one day, im proud) and its really got my mind focused on Ty. I haven't heard from him all day and it's only 6 PM so he might be online later but i just seem to want to see him. Come to think of it i'm not used to not seeing him everyday and i told you about the time he was sick and i didn't see him at school for a few days, i was all depressed and such. (today, May/Mai 30) It's still early in the morning (i have to get up because i have swim practice at 7AM) and i doubt he's even up. But i got a text from Hun-kun (EMOTIONALLY SCARRED!) last night mentioning that our pool was opened. [Note: Our neighborhood has its own private community pool and my mom is the president of the board of the community so i think it was kinda stupid that he said that because my mom is the one incharge of the pool and opening dates and such] I couldn't answer him because i had already fallen asleep but maybe if he sends another i'll tell him that i am going today with my friend, Neko-chan (i know a lot of nekos O_o), which i am, so maybe he might tell Ty, doubt it but you never know. So ya just gonna hang out for now and wait for everyone else to get up... i hate having to get up early.
....,
Hikari

A Lesson for Europeans :D (WAIT I AM EUROPEAN!?)

[edit: ok now i found the post i was REALLY gonna post so you can read and comment now tokomi-chan]


Ok once again title has nothing to do with anything and yes i am a French citizen so.... i'm half french. Vive la France! :D whatever.

Ok i'm sorry everyone i didn't have time to post yesterday so i'll just post what happened yesterday since nothing has actually happened today. Yesterday i was mostly out running arrends so i didn't have time to talk but when i logged into IM on my phone Ty had messaged me first (a rare sight) from his XBOX (a first). I thought that was sweet since he actually took the time to message me before he started playing whatever. We talked for a little then he went to play whatever and i went home and got ready for my anime club that my friends go to. A new approach i'm trying tho is when Ty and i first started talking, and last summer. His nickname was either ichigo(BLEACH) or sasuke/gaara (naruto) and i was Rukia (BLEACH, and my fave manga chara). So i've been trying to bring back the whole Rukia and Ichigo thing since we also watched BLEACH in anime club and i think they go together. All my friends (who don't know i like Ty) kept asking if there was a real life Ichigo for me since i was Rukia. I say yes but i cover it up with you don't know him (which they do but i don't tell them that ;P) So ya, i thought about him a lot last night but i didn't get another chance to talk to him.
And everyone is surprised that Ty is wearing and anklet (yes it is how we call Ankle Bracelts in the States) but i mean i know a lot of guys that wear some type of jewelry whether its a necklace (and im not talking beads and sparkly things ladies i'm saying like ykno shells or sharks teeth or really simple stone beads or somethin) or an anklet (the freaks do the whole earring thing but thank god i don't have a friend with an earring), our guys here aren't gay or anything they just wear that. So ya, and everyone is making it sound like i was wondering if i should wear my anklets again, well i am and i was kinda originally planning to so yup. Like i said nothing exciting yet.
Waiting for the world to change once again,
Hikari

A day off to do nothin, just photoshop and work on my webbie...... OK FINE! AND DREAM ABOUT HIM!

Ok so ya i know i haven't posted in what....3? 4? 4 days? Ya ok anyway, really nothin much has happened with Ty, since he doesn't have his phone i can't talk to him much, but i did get a chance to talk to him yesterday night (late late late). I'm not gonna post the entire conversation (kinda long but not with words) but i will explain the fine points. I'm really starting to think he might like me. Plus i have me and my crazy exaggerations that i WANT to believe but totally doubt they're true. But first to the conv.:

(after lots of dots and smilies and ???s)

Hikari: I'm sorry, am i just a nuisence
Ty: No ^-^
Hikari: Oh thanx. I was starting to wonder if i just annoy the hell outta ya
Ty: lol
Hikari: .......
Ty: ???
Hikari: Nothin ^-^ (<-- GRAH!!! Why do i always do this!?!?!?! [remember how he first told me he liked me: Ty:..... Me: ??? Ty:..... Me: What? Ty:....... nothin Me: JUST TELL ME ALREADY! Ty:......... Me: Fine! NITE! Ty: NO WAIT! Me: what!? Ty:...... i have a c**** on you...........] so as you can see im trying to do a spin off to see if he notices but i can never continue after nothin, too nervous)
Ty: K ^-^
(made him laugh a few times telling him about france)
Hikari: Did you get anywhere with your story
Ty: no
Hikari: ...... (here we go again)
Ty: ???
Hikari: ... hm. nothin really
Ty: REALLY??? (<-- kya now he's curious O.O)
Hikari:....um....ya
Ty: ........ (<--- kya kya kya!!!)
Hikari: uh.... sorry..... GRAH TO MANY DOTS (<--- used to say this when he did it to me)
Ty: lol

Then i never got to say gnite cause he logged off of his XBOX (which i rarely IM him on but i did last night)

So ya our very um... small talking big dottie conversation. I think the "..." are definetly a pause that should be taken into consideration since that's what he always did when he was nervous. So i really don't know. He's on right now but "Away" so i can't message him but maybe if he gets back. Now for my crazy thoughts :):

Ok so last May my dad and i were at a local art market when i saw a stand with some jewelry (i rarely wear jewelry but my mom's a jewelry designer so she sometimes forces me into her stuff) but they had some woven anklets outside with different colored beads. Each color had a meaning, and blue was for romance. Even though they were just some cheap anklets that probably really didn't have any effect (a.k.a plastic beads and such) i still bought them because at the time i was crushing over this guy who was my neighbor (got over him quick). So i wore it, never took it off unless my mom was fixing it and around the time i first wore it was the around the same time Ty and i became really close friends. Then in January it came off during Phys. Ed. class and i never got it fixed. Now im starting to think winter was kinda the time Ty and I kinda grew more apart. So now i got brand new blue beads and i made my own and i just put it on yesterday but now im wondering if it might help bring back something this summer. I know i might be overexaggerating but i realized during the last week of school, Ty has an anklet as well (not blue and woven like mine a little bit more masculine, black of course, but it looked like he'd worn it for a while). Did he do it cause i had mine all last summer??? I know i know im overexaggerating but you never know!!! So yup. I really hope the new anklet will help this summer, if so i am NEVER taking it off!!!

Needs to calm down and come up with shorter posts,
Hikari

Summer has come! What will happen now.... Too early to tell -.-

Well first of all i'm so sorry everyone that i didn't post last night like i said i was. My couch made me so furious if i even touched my computer last night i would probably throw it against the wall. But now it seems that what happened yesterday has no meaning. FOR TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND THE BEGINNING OF MY SUMMER OF (maybe) LOVE OR MISERY (let's hope not misery).

We pretty much did not do much today during school, which made it feel like a couple days so i am still having a little trouble remembering everything it was such a busy day. I had found a baseball on our school field as i walked to school and i kept it. Throughout the day i asked everyone to sign it, including Ty. Although when we got our yearbooks i didn't have the courage to ask him to sign it, we kinda were only meeting up once in a while in the three hours of book signing in a crowd of a couple hundred people. Then the fiasco moved outside where everyone in the school met up (im talking 2000 people) so it was really hard to find anyone. Then when school was out i met up and waited for Ty, his friend Hun, Craz, and my our other friend (girl) to walk home. But because there was lots of rain and wind Craz flipped out and started to run home. She's a really fast runner so most of us all quit after 50 seconds.
But since the rest of us left Ty, Hun, Kisu-chan, and me had all gone to the same primary school together (which is by all of our houses) we all decided to say hello to our old teachers. So we walked over there but we had heard a rumor that our teacher went to get something and would be back soon. So we waited in her room as we looked through each others yearbooks and talked about people in school. Hun and Ty talked a lot about how cool Craz is (i'm the only one who knows about her lies and her attitude issues, i'm not going to tell anyone, i'll let her bring it down on herself) and i just shrugged. They talked about how hot she used to be but now that she was dating their best friend they didn't care much for her.
Then Ty was looking through the yearbook for hot girls infront of me frequently stating "she's hot". Do you think he was just trying to make me jealous? He would say it right infront of me. And plus even if someone is hot it doesn't mean you like them. Right? Plus, when i asked to make a comment about at least one girl he thought was cute he named one, but i didn't know her and took him a while to come up with her. And then Hun also made a comment about me being jealous when i mumbled "She isn't THAT cute" So maybe he doesn't really like these girls who knows.
I got super nervous because as well, he touched my hand on accident while we flipped the pages and it was that whole freak out things like in the movies. I scooted away and he mumbleds sorry under his breath (i was soooo red), plus instead of walking the quicker way home he took the longer way with me and kisu-chan? What do you guys think of all this? Am i just overexagerrating? I need to go clean my room and i barely slept last night so need to go and sleep so i can stay up later tomoro (if only these extra innings will end). I hope i'll be able to come up with the guts to ask him to hang out,
Hikari

P.S. And i found out he broke his phone so the only way I CAN talk to him for the moment is IM and he's not online much so im kinda also bummed out :(

The Wind is picking up

Ok its just windy outside and it has nothing to do with this post so just ignore it.


So today Ty came back to school looking pretty healthy so i was alright. 2 days left of doing nothing at school and i really don't think we'll be doin anything much so maybe i'll have time to talk more with him. i tried to talk with him more in Phys Ed. but he was on the opposite team of me because his friend was on that team. It was a bummer because i wanted him to be on my team because his team had 8 peeps and ours.... 5. So ya we got our butts beat. i was the only person who scored a run. And then i so desperatly wanted to walk with him home from school so as soon as the beel rang i ran down to where we always meet, him right behind me. But when i turned around he wasn't there. i went outside and he didn't start walking either but all his friends had. I was really confused. i waited for a little and he didn't come out so i had to walk home by myself looking back frequently to see if he was coming. Nada. He might have stayed after for art to finish the porject or something but i still miss him and he still hasn't come online. I have to go to a practice right now and otherwise i've just been playing with Yuki, my cat. Hope i'll at least be able to talk to him tonight.

See ya everyone!

P.S. And today M******* came in late and sat on Ty's table and put her leg out right infront of him. Thank god he payed no attention but i think she's trying to look attractive even though she was wearing some uneven pigtails, the most gaudy necklaces ever and look like an overall dork. I have a 99% guess he doesn't like her but i think she wants him. Hope she's in a different pod next year. Hope he forgets her or else she'll be in for the beating of a life time -.-

P.S.S. I made a comment on my last post about the military thing and here is our conversation from last night about him being sick:

Hikari: where the hell have u been?
Ty: its called sick puking and a temp of 102
Hikari: o my gosh i am soooooo sorry. its probably my fault im soooo sorry
Ty: how??? (<--- see triple ?s)
Hikari: *after erasing a million Ws* uh i was sick. not with that just a short head cold. (sorry my cat was sitting on the keyboard)
Hikari: i ditched most of yesterday cause of it but its already gone
Ty: no it was my family they're all sick
Hikari: o i c
Hikari: well that sucks. hopefully it'll be gone before summer vacation
Ty: it already is suprisingly only 2 days
Hikari: i know. im pretty excited. so sick of school.... maybe thats why everyone is sick. Its school.
Hikari: anyway i really hope you feel better. that's a crapshoot
Ty: lol thanks

SchoolSick

Hey everyone! Hikari's back and i have gotten the world solved! No not quite. Anyway i logged on a couple minutes ago and haleluyah there he was. So i pinged him really quick with a simple comment trying to sound like i didnt care: "Where the hell have you been?". Turns out he has had the flu. Big bummer. i went through the whole im sorry that must suck, etc. etc. Anyway now i know what's going im relieved. But we only have 3 days left and i hope he's better by then. Everyday without him at school is soo.... awkward. And quiet. I'll try to stay happy and hope he gets better. But i have had it with school and i think im a little over anxious for school to end. I tried to make him feel better by telling him i thought he got sick of school because it's gotten so boring. he didn't really say much, i guess i need to come up with something else to talk about before he logs off again *sobs*. For now i can just wait for school to end and hope for the better.
Hikari


P.S. Another issue that worries me a bit. Even though we still have a couple years before we can choose what to do with our lives, Ty is already asking people what to do after HS. Now i already know what i want to do but i also have more proof than most people and i know the people at the college i'd like to attend. But the problem is, since Ty doesn't have much in the means of interests he keeps asking people if he should join the military. And i know its not my choice and i am a too critical of a person but i still think that's not a good choice. I never like military related things, but of course im a girl. So i dont know its not my choice and i can't tell him anything rude or he might hate me but what would you do if the guy you liked asked you if he wanted to join the military???

Flippin' (i really shouldn't though)

Ok so y'know how its spring and all this pollen and crap is flyin around right? Well everyone is getting allergy colds (thats what i call em, they're head colds but caused by all the crap not a virus). So anyway i have been home all weekend with that. Anyway today i was home from school for a few hours between my exam at the beginning of the day and the end and i had noticed that Ty wasn't at school. What i found wierd was that all weekend he was never on his Xbox (which he ALWAYS is) and he never answered any of my texts. I said hey, he's probably home sick (always very rare for him) and playing today i might as well check. But when i checked my messenger he wasn't on. Which he has nothing else to do when he stays home all day so where the hell could he be??? im flippin now cause i have heard nor seen him for 3 days and i have no idea if something happened. its probably alright tho. he's probably gonna come back tomoro and be fine so i guess right now i just need to be more patient...

Hi everyone!

Hey it's me Hikari. This is just a branch off of the forum i was on discussing this issue. If you are from the forum (which most likely you are) then i will keep posting there. Please tell me if i should even keep this but i just felt like i was cluttering the forum. Am I?
Anyway here is the issue and i really encourage commenting but please sign after each comment so i know what your screenname is (you can use the screenname from the forum too that would be a lot easier), by the way this is copied from the original post:

Please help me! I know i sound a bit annoying with being so desperate but reading everyone elses love posts makes me realize how much i need all of you.
Ok here's the story (sorry if i ramble):

I had been in this guy's (his name is Ty) class for three years after i had transferred in from an International School. I never noticed him and he never noticed me and i wasn't worried about it. Then in the last year we were in that school, i ended up sitting next to him. We began to know each other and before i knew it we hung out all the time. Then summer vacation came and it was the big one between the two school switches (from primary to secondary, last summer). So then we texted all night, he turned me into a nocturnal person (he's nocturnal) so we would stay up all night texting and IMing and during the day he'd always come over and hang out at the pool since his friend lived down the street from me. Then one night we were texting and i kept rambling on and on and then said i was going to bed then he said wait. I asked why and he texted: "I just wanted to say um..." Me: "Um what?" Him: "....." Me: "TELL ME ALREADY!" Him: "I JUST WANTED TO SAY I HAVE A C**** ON YOU!!!" At first i didnt get what he said but then when i saw what the 4 stars were, i was shocked. I had never wanted it to turn out this way, i just wanted to be friends. I cried myself to sleep that night. But as the summer went by his (he only did this in texts) *red*s turned to *hug*s and then to *kiss*s. And i really started to like him! He always a joy to talk to and i always was checking my phone to see if he texted. It was the best summer i had ever had.
When we started up in the next school to my surprise we were in the same pod (the school is split into 4 pods) and i had plenty of classes with him. We sat together at lunch with all his other friends and i became friends with a bunch of guys, but no one knew i liked Ty, not even Ty. So one night i told him. He asked me so bad if i wanted to be his girlfriend. Let me all let you know, I have never had a boyfriend. No one actually like me and me like them back! I freaked out. Now i would love to go out with him but i cowarded. I said no (idiot idiot idiot idiot). I used a sorry excuse of: "I dont want any rumors but i still like you alot" and it was over. He did ask quite a bit later but we never did.Our relationship weakened more and more throughout the year but that just made me like him more and more. I'm at the point now where im just seriously madly INLOVE! yes LOVE! there is 17 days (now a week) till summer vacation now. I've gotten to talk to him a lot more but its wierd. I want to ask him if he still likes me and i want to say i do too but i cant get the guts. And im hoping that i will spend more time with him with the summer but i dont even know if he still likes me. He seems to like me a little bit and i try to show no blushing but sometimes i just turn solid red, and he keeps talking about how hot the girls in school are and he keeps hanging around with this girl who i only have one class with, and i dont know if they're going out, if they like each other, or if he's just trying to make me jealous. (i know that he always tried to make me jealous with this girl he made up named Andrea and he's starting to talk about her again [she is fake i know for sure] but i dont know if its for me...) (edit: i later found out they're just kinda friends but he doesnt really like her attitude much) .

So im so sorry for rambling but here is my final questions i want you to help me with:
Do you think he likes me?
What should i do to try to make this summer even better than the last?
Should i tell him how i feel or wait for him, do you think he will ever tell me?
Am i too over dramatic? (jk)

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME OUT >.< !!!!!