How to Start Over (that would be a good song title)

Ok well I know Cleo you are probably crying now I haven't been on in so long. I guess it really has taken its toll. But it has just been awkward, yknow? (and busy!) anyway, we're having break for a week so hopefully that'll give me time to try to wrap my head around my life. But I don't do you even want to hear about Ty? Do you even care anymore? Does anyone?
... Well I can't really say much. We put each other in a position of "break". We didn't have a fight, nothing happened really (well maybe Craz but she wasn't a big contributer [note she doesn't talk to either of us now]) but we just took a break from existence so to speak. It started when i started to ignore him purposefully for a week to see what would happen which resulted in a habit of ignoring and then he did the same thing. And that's the thing we're not upset at each other, we don't not want to talk. We just don't know what to say. It's like whatever comes out of either of our mouths will be totally wierd. Loss for words much, right?
Like today/yesterday, I'll be hanging out with some friends and he'll come up to talk and they'll give him hugs and say hi and then im the last one and we kinda just glance at each other really quick and then just forget. We don't even say hi. I think telepathically we do but we just can't actually squeeze it out. It's just like a break in time that we both happen to skip over.
And if i was smart and posted a few weeks ago, I said i was going to take a break from worrying so much about Ty but it seems now i have and haven't. I don't worry about him as much anymore but he was gone all week because of sickness then I got sick and I had to go to school for the last hour for a test and then he showed up and I looked him right in the eye and I about fainted. I think it was cause I had a high fever I all of a sudden overreacted cause i didn't expect him to be there but the next day I was fine. But just awkward things like that just kind of stump us both.... at least it LOOKS like he thinks the same... I don't know. I can't ask. Just wierd.

But he did get WoW back and invited me to play which was like the first time he had talked to me in like.... 6 weeks? it was a happy 5 min and 20 words but hey, he talked to me :D. He didn't forget me. He asked ME to play WoW with him :D. I dont know that makes me feel special, as long as I am not forgotten. My one dilemma is trying to figure out how to get out of this "break" that kind of dug its way into both our lives.
Miss you all, especially you Cleo,
Hikari

P.S. Cleo I have my rough for that drawing I said I would do for you eons ago

P.S.S. Tell Tokomi about me if you can if she even cares anymore since I know she doesn't really come on.

P.S.S.S. I'm thinking of changing my layout again....