Mixed Emotions in a bubbling pot but still I'm able to crack a smile if i need to

I'm kinda in a mix of emotions at the moment. I just got home from school and i'm miffed and angry, but also sad and want to cry, but then i feel just a little relieved and proud and happy, thanks to you guys. No Craz didn't do much wrong im mostly mad at Ty/Craz and sad at Ty at the same time but im also proud of myself for what i did. No i did not confess, but today i was happy that 1. school was over (i was walking to the door to go home) and 2. I didnt have lots of homework so i could work on this blog and go through my 600 photographs i have taken over the last 3 days (O_o a pain yes...).
So then Ty came out looking really happy and such so it made me happy, i was also with Hun. But soon after we started walking Ty stopped said he was going to wait for Craz. I just told him not to worry about her and she'd catch up anyway even though i didnt want her to. But no he still waited for her and i kept walking. I was happy cause at least Hun agreed with me and he walked with me. Hun never talks in person, he's too shy, that's why we always chat and ramble online so of course we just walked next to us and i just turned my iPod up really loud so i couldn't hear Craz's loud voice 6 meters behind us. She and Ty walked the same distance away for us and i never heard if they called for us but i am mad at him for choosing her over me although i was still kept some pride and said that i would not walk with her thus i gave him up just this once, i was not willing to lose.
He did seem more distant to me then ever and i did feel as if i may had taken an appearance of a stuck up person but im not afraid to show who i really am and so i just kept walking, not with my head high but at least some with some "pride" you could say, or confidence in myself. Ty is on right now but i won't talk to him, i'm tryin to think on what i could say that would show that i was hurt at what he did.
But you guys were the ones that lifted me up. Talking about everything on those comments did make me crack a smile and i still feel hurt but at least a little more controlled and peaceful. So thank you everyone, i think im gonna finish this new layout im making and also a picture i drew today in french of me kinda feeling the way i am now, clenching love as i view it. Hope you like it.

Oh and concerning Alana, i dont really mind her i realize she might be trying to hit on Ty but she is still dating Ty and i think she is just trying to act like him since he is the upperclassmen. I can tell she's trying to look cooler as an underclassmen by cussing and trying to fit in and i applaud her for her efforts but i think she'll get tired of him after long, plus her friends don't seem to care for us much. The great thing is that the fact i called Craz annoying and stuff didnt seem to bother or get around too many people since plenty of our shared friends know i wouldn't do something such as whatever she mentioned and only one person asked me about it, im pretty comfortable with it. She did not look at me today, nor talk to me, and kept her distance, and she didn't even sit at our table so her voice was a far way's away and Ty stayed and talked with us, which was wonderful. If only Ty hadnt been so stubborn and walked with us then she would haven't tried to catch up because i was there. But maybe another day, i gotta hint something. JUst a small something to show i really love him. I can't keep going on like this cause i am getting nowhere. I'm not falling away without him and im not getting closer, im kinda just sitting. So please help me out with that but although i am having mixed emotions i still feel thankful in a wierd way.

Side story: By the way im not sure if i ever mentioned this but Hun used to like me back when Ty used to like me (only hun and Ty's other friend knew about him liking me) and it wasn't as much as Ty and he didnt want to go out with me but he did tell me he thought i was cute and really nice and to not tell Ty, which i didnt. I found this sweet and i was a little flattered but it was never really mentioned again. I don't think he likes me anymore although he does call me hot sometimes but i dont really mind, i hear it sometimes. But just because we share similiar interests (and i have always been as nice as possible to HUn and the same back because of the way he acts because of the death of his dad a few years before anyone knew him so i have always felt bad) and can talk about Ty because we usually have the same outlook on him (not that we like him just when Ty would say something stupid or not make any sense or go on a tantrun [hun is about or more laid back as i am and im really laid back] or something). So i don't like hun and probably never will but he is definetly someone that can read my face and probably never say a word about it, i can trust him and i also would like to say thanks hun ^^.

Looking ahead on the road of love, will my feet remain firmly planted or will they give in and run down across the black concrete?
Hikari