I've reached the doors at the city of love, it's his turn to decide to let me in. Yup I told him! :D

Yup. Indeed i told him. He hasn't found the message yet, but i told him how i feel. Totally direct, no hints or anything. I feel really good now, carefree and relieved that i got it over with it. And even though i'm scared for the response (and he is still going out with Favi which is also a problem that may get in the way) i'm not going to let it bother me. It'll be painful to take rejection but if i can send a note like the one i did then I can handle a rejection! *pride*
I sent the note
("Hey i know this is kinda sudden but i just wanted to say i still really like you. And i know we dont talk much anymore but i just wanted you to know since it's been on my mind since last summer. have a good night then (or whatever time of day it is) and maybe i'll see you around if you're still willing to talk to me.") late last night while he was offline so he will get it whenever he signs into MSN. I'm not going to hide, i will hear what he has to say. But last time i sent something while he was offline he didn't receive it for a week. So he may recieve it today, or he may recieve it a week from now, who knows. But as long as i don't worry myself so hard anymore I think i'll be safe from beating myself up inside. Plus my RPG forum supporters all told me to look up and that that there is a 4/5 chance he'll accept, i have my doubts on that but it still makes me happy to hear.

But a couple things aside since i actually can't really think of what else to say to such a great event:

1. If you haven't noticed i changed my avatar, the girl looks a lot like me my friends tell me and she is also my 2nd favorite manga character. The guy on the right is the main character of the manga who coincidently has black hair (like Ty) and is a popular pairing with my fave character there ^^

2. ok this is kinda lame but my friend did thise little test/thingy where they choose random things and even though its different answers everytime i actually ended up with being together with Ty in the end which really surprised me cause i didn't even choose the options on who i would be with and i didn't even know she knew i actually remotely thought about Ty. And we also coincidently ended up in Chicago which is both are favorite city and i have a high chance of going to because of college that is interested in me and vice versa. So it was kinda odd.

3. I have plenty of people i want to thank for helping me with everything:
- Everyone on the SB (karin, omni, Hollow, burned, seawolf, knight, and many many more)
-Vampire-zombie on dA (once again i hope you feel better too)
- And most of all, all of you that first helped me so many months ago, Cleo, Tokomi, and Carrie. THANK YOU ALL >o< !!!!!!

Oh my gosh, he just signed in *heart beating at a million miles a minute, seriously*
Knocking and knocking on the door,
Hikari