Black Pavement Tears of Happiness and Sadness and plenty others

Ok well good and bad news i guess. I really don't need to explain what has happened the days before yesterday but long story short, i just seem to be one day happy with the way Ty treats me and then the next day im mad again. Well i guess mostly at Craz. For example yesterday, I come and sit down next to Ty and across from Craz at lunch. Immediatly Craz moves to the table next to us, Ty moves with her. GRAH ITS SO INFURIATING!?!!? And i don't know why he still believes her and does whatever she asks cause she's kinda treating him like crap. Problem is this all started cause i broke it to Ty on friday, that Craz lied. I'm not sure he believed me. He seems to hate me more now but he doesn't hate me, he just doesn't like to be in the middle of this and so far he's gonna side with Craz, of course im not happy about this. But to relieve everyone Favi did come back so now Ty does feel a lot better (Craz doesn't know Favi so she never was entered into the depression of the people who did).(i wrote this yesterday).

But then after that he messaged me and brought up the Craz topic. I always have known she hated herself, problem is she won't change it which is why i won't deal with her anymore. Ty just realizes this and wants me to help her to stop lying and i told him no. I told him that i have already tried and she just refuses so she's got fix it on her own. Ty still doesn't know what to do, he's still following her all over. But he said he was sorry for all the ignoring and i took that to be pretty sincere. *red* God he's hot.... OK TOTALLY RANDOM BACK ON TOPIC *turns off picture of him on cell phone*!
So now he said he wouldn't believe her as much and wait to see what happened with her. I really hope she can get herself together without involving Ty and everyone but the chances of that are slim. He said he might have to keep trying to ignore me even though he doesn't want to and will try his best but Craz will take advantage of him talking to me. She has already come up with plenty of rumors which sadly lots of people believe. I told Ty it wasn't true, i think some of he knows is a lie and others he believes sadly. How could he believe her more than me when he has known me WAY longer!? This makes no sense to me. But she said i call her a whore (definetly didn't i dont call anyone that!!!), im jealous of her (i have nothing to be jealous of, she has nothing especially nothing I need), and she even judged me and Ty. She was asking why we were even friends!? She said because we have "nothing in common". SO WHAT!? God i wanna punch her. So basically it ended with an agreement and a lie on my part.
Ty said the one thing he didn't understand about me was why i always critized him. Bullseye. At the beginning of the year i made a list of the things i wanted to change about myself and the amount of critizism i give was one of them. I haven't been too good at stopping that. Of course it is joking critizism and i would never MEAN it but i guess most people take it seriously and now i REALLY wanna cry (yay im PMSing! Wait thats a bad thing. but maybe it might help me cry?). And i think about it now and i dont like it when people do it to me cause i ALWAYS take it seriously. So why do i do it? And then when he asked the reason it was a moment where i though, what if i do it cause i like him? I think he might have gotten the idea and i almost blurted it out then i came up with i dont know but i was so close, you should have seen me i was flipping out. So i tried to minimize and try my best to stop but i already critized a few people and i did apologive (none of them were Ty, i wasn't able to talk to him again cause of Craz) but i feel really bad. But people also hate when i apologive cause i get a little OVER-apologetic. So im trying to minimize my sorries too. Please help me with this although i don't know how.
The lie was that i'd be tough. He asked what i felt about him ignoring him, i said i felt kinda hurt but that i could handle it and that i was tough enough. I'm not. I'm crying on the inside and i wanna punch Craz for fooling him with such lies. Please help me come up with a plan where i can get rid of her nasty lies once and for all. I need to figure out how i can do it sneeky and without people knowing but not ruining her. She can keep her friends i just want her to stop lying. I know this is helping her which is what i said i WOULDN'T do but does it count if i can benefit from it??? Well we'll have to see. Long comments are appreciated.

@Cleo, I FEEL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! Please read my comment on your latest entry that'll explain my happiness for you.

@Tokomi: When are ya's gonna post something new? we're missing you *snifl*

Hugs to you all, remember looooong comments!
Tears of happiness and sadness onto that black pavement,
Hopeful Hikari